Smells like teen spirit

Everywhere yet nowhere at the same time. I like the contrast.

My eyes are hurting from the glare of the screen. This is a sign that #1, I'll lose my perfect eyesight soon enough and #2, someone should smash this thing to prevent #1 from happenning.

Or I could just dye my cats green for my 30min "eye break", since they're always up late with me on the table/my lap/within my view.

These couple of days got me thinking about insecure people and insecurities. Several instances. Hmm. It's part sad, part disturbing, part annoying and yeah, part pathetic.

It is also quite sad how people can find it easier to tell a stranger/someone they're not close to the whole truth, but when it comes to someone they're good friends with, they can't. It's like there's this barrier. The whole please him/her dont mess things up thing? That's just messed up shit.

No, I'm not talking about best friends, cos if you can't tell them anything/everything, screw the label then. Neither am I aiming that (above para) to anyone in particular, in case you feel that way for some odd reason.

When he asked me that day, it suddenly hit me. The revelation about those four years.

I do not know how to describe it. I cannot describe it. I simply can't. All I know, is that it's rather depressing.

I have not seen my parents (not preoperly) in three days and I miss them.

I should cut the rude habits. It gets old and it's definitely not cute/smart anymore now that I've left secondary school. (I doubt it ever was, but bear with me here) I mean the last thing I want is for them to have problems with me right, cos it's so unnecessary. Like, gosh, I'm not 5, yknow?

I need a one week long job. Anybody? Cos I dont like working there anymore. The hours kill, but I want need the cash -so bad. I really do. There are so many things I need to get. Why can't my parents spoil me?

Anyways, I've been listening to very different songs of late. I'm quite surprised by what I like, actually. Hahah.

Tomorrow should be fun, cos it's been a long while since I last hit town. I'm hoping Mama's in a great mood tmr when she wakes up. I need the money! ARGH. I hate being penniless.

Must. set. alarm. to. wake. up. before. she. does..

to prepare a nice breakfast. (=bribe shh) :P